|cupcakes are so amazingly delicious - they make anything beter|
|mmmmm homeade buttercream is the BEST!|
Since moving out of my parents home and then my grandparents home (yea long story there) and moving in with Damon, the love of my life, I have grown to have this amazing and wonderful obsession with baking, cooking and all things food. I have this crazy sense of madness when I get in the kitchen - I'm always the one who has to be touching the pots and pans, mixing, cooking, everything. Ask Damon - I'm a phene for being the one in control of the kitchen.. It probably drives him up the wall, because I have a hard time giving up control in the kitchen - even on nights where he tells me he's cooking I have a very hard time letting him. Is this a BAD thing??
And since then, if you are a loyal reader and saw my post about Mrs. Paula Deen, you will find I'm reading her book. Doesn't make my so called Kitchen Problem any better.... I was born to be in the kitchen! I was born to cook! I live for it! I am a younger version of Paula, I'm convinced.
Its my dream, my goal, my aspirations to be like Paula - and be known for cooking.. I want people to enjoy my food, LOVE my food even. It's just getting there that's the hard part. I tell myself over and over again that I can do this - but my mind always gets the best of me and convinces me that I shouldn't waste my time... Where would I find the money to get started? Where would I find that person that believes in me and invests in me? I think its quite possible that I'm just off in one of my crazy little worlds that I go so often.
I just don't want to grow up wishing and regretting what that I would have done more or done what I wanted to do - I want to grow up knowing I've fufilled that dream - cooking, baking and pleasing everyone's taste buds...