i'm taking a chance & ranting

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I'm putting it out there.  I'm laying everything including my blog on the line.  There's alot of things in life that I don't understand and even more that we're not supposed to understand. 

But I understand this much.  People gravitate towards other people. Typically.  You want people to like you.  It's a human being's natural instict - to be liked.  And here lately, I've had a really problem with this. 

This post isn't trying to grab comments or sympathy or the "we're sorries."  Its not and if this further isolates myself, thats fine.  Maybe its me being a little green with envy, which is possible, we are all guilty of that at some point in our lives too, but I've noticed a few things that I really need to put out there, so my blogging experience can continue without feeling this grudge for being me.  

On the great blogosphere, I sometimes feel non-existent to most of the blogger world.  You blog to your little heart's content & nothing.  People are reading, but nothing.  I sometimes feel its like another popularity contest people are having with one another.  We shouldn't have to conform & be the way everyone wants us to be to get "comments" or new followers.  We shouldn't & thats how I feel this works.  Be someone I'm not to gain being noticed.  And I also know we're not all going to be friends and love each other and think everything everyone says is totally life changing, but if you are my friend and follower, please at least appear that you are semi-invested in my blog. Dont just stick around for your benefit only. Its wasting my time and yours. It hurts to know that you're sharing your life with the world, but it appears as though no one is listening. And if they are, they have nothing to say. 

For my gems out there that I can talk to & write to, its nice having you around. I shouldn't have to name you by name, you know who you are, you shouldn't have to ask. To be able to know I can say how I feel without that feeling of complete isolation because I expressed myself is such a nice feeling.  I enjoy having you as a part of my blogger world.  You have made this a much more pleasant place to be.  You have made my blogging worth it & I thank you for this.

If this post happens to piss people off and drive you away, then I understand, but I had to get this off my chest in order to be able to feel okay with myself at the end of the day.

This just had to be said.