can you believe it's been four weeks since I had Benjamin?? I can't believe how quickly it flew by. Next thing I know he will be asking me to buy him a car. Yikes!
During these four weeks I have learned so many things about myself that I was not prepared for.
I learned patience. Excessive amounts of patience. No one really knows how hard being a parent is until you are home, on your own and your child is crying and you can't figure out why. You have tried everything and nothing consoles them. It's the worst feeling in the world to not be able to console your child. It makes you feel like the worst parent in the world. But it's times like this that you have to take a deep breath and tell yourself it's going to get better.
I've learned that postpartum depression is no joke. I cried everyday for what seemed like for days. The hormone roller coaster makes you feel completely crazy on the inside. It makes you want to just walk away from everything. Without my supporting family and husband, i could have easily become one of those stats. But luckily those feelings have subsided. It was just the baby blues that we all experience for the first weeks after birth. But I do have a much deeper sympathy for those moms who aren't so lucky. And if you think you have postpartum depression don't fret, just talk to your doctor and get help. You aren't any less of a mom. I promise.
Ive learned love. Real love. The love I have for my husband and Benjamin are much stronger than I ever thought possible. It's amazing how that feeling hits you once your child gets here. And how it gets stronger everyday.
And just one more thing. I have decided to share photos of Benjamin on my blog. Enjoy!